Sometimes, i jz wonder why would a 'friend' treats you badly when u had alwaes treated her as a friend no matter wd she did to u. She talks about you in her blog, tld ur boyfriend tt u had another guy n causing u to broke off with hym, n go around bitching about you, called you this and that and alot mre. and to make things worse, she, as a friend, would lyk ppl to hate you rather than like you. and u r stupid enuff to treat her as a friend despite all those things she did. she pretended to treat you as a friend bt fact is she dont lyk u, she hated you, she despise you. shes even willing to destroy you. bt u jz dnt gif up on her, u still treat her nice, help her when shes in need, be there 4 her when shes down, wishes the best for her and yet she took tt 4 granted and she even said tt you are acting lyk an angel when truth is you r not acting bt mean it. she even make it sound sarcastic when you gave her advices in return. n yet you r still stupid enuff to stick to her jz bcoz you wanted her to see her mistakes, and never given up on her. why? becoz you love her alot. and you noe tt although its not worth loving some1 lyk her when she dont even need you in her life, u jz wanna stay by her side and mke her become a better person. bt all she did was pushed you around, pushed you away. why? bcoz she dnt lyk you. dont lyk who u r. she dont. she jz acted to b nice in frnt of you. you know tt many ppl dnt lyk you as well coz you look lyk a bitch around her. bt you dont even care abt what ppl says when being around her coz you onli noe 1 thing 4 sre which is u wnna help her. but she dont appreciate it. she said you r jz using propaganda when actualli u mean it. you tried helping her, bt all she did was to mke u even feel bad. she assume tt u were the 1 who go around bitching about her when fact is shes the one who go around bitching about u. she told some1 tt she didnt treasure this friendship. you was upset bt still, you'r here trying. trying to help her. wheres the her
that you once know? she simply change. change for the werst. yes, you know tt u r not a good friend 4 her bt u had tried. tried your best bein there 4 her. bt wd she did? she onli know how to hate you, make many people hate you, see u in different waes. she dont noe how to appreciate good things, good friends, good love. she dont know how to love her things, what shes got. she tld ppl tt she love you bt wd she did to proof to you tt she loves u as her OWN friend? ntg. this is wd she did towerds you. so why r u stupid enuff to still love her? ever think y? bcoz shes got no otr friend to show her, lead her to the right path. yes, you agree tt ppl mke mistkes and no1 is perfect. and you urself mke mistakes bt isnt mistakes done is mistakes learnt? you learnt your mistakes but wd abt her? shes still repeating her silly mistkes. she corrected you when you mde a mistke n you listens to her. bt when she mde a mistake, n u corrected her, she assume tt u r onli trying to use propaganda to mke her lyk u. bt truth is u mean wd u said n not trying to attract any1's attention bt too bad, she sees it tt wae. you did everythng you did to mke her accept you as her friend but up till now, ntg werks. she hated u to the core. uve run out of ideas of trying to help her. n now upon checking up her blog, u found this. tell me, what wld u ppl out there feel if you r in this situation now? simply hurt? yes tts wd i feel. bt she, would never care, no matter wd u ppl feel coz all she care about is her own self. n actualliwd i quoted from her blog, i noe tt she was reffering to me n yet i wouldnt mke a big fuss out of it. again, im keeping quiet. bt i tink, wdeva stated down here is her, referring to her own self, not me. dont u think so ppl? bt sometymes its good to mke her realise abt her own silly mistkes, right friend? and to my dear friend, thanxx 4 pretending to b nice in frnt of me n talk behind me the next min. no matter wd you did, i still love you as MY friend. so, kantoi. =)



"I don' tknow why people love backstabbing alot.
"Sudah jadi kerja kamu ya? Gajinya berapa, ya?"
OOOOOPPPPPSSS! Siape yang terasa tu, silalah temui saya.~
"Ain, kalau kau tak puas hati dengan orang tu, cakap depan-depan,
face to face, jangan berbual belakang-belakang."
Oh, kirekan sekarang ni kau Angel ah, coming to my rescue?
So much of your advices, or are you in need of advices? Haha! ^^
Perangai pun 2x5 ah kau. What-the-heck! Tapi end up,
engkaulah manusia yang dibenci orang-orang.
I think you're the next Stalin ah. You used Propaganda ehhh.. ^^
Pasal badan, you don't compare yours with others cos
we all know you don't have a sexy figure and a lady's figure. Lol!
If you think that you're really unperfect, jangan nak step perfect-kan ah.
Fuuuuuuuyyyyyoooohhhh! Tentang kau, everything's out la eh.
Senang dikatekan, she's a two-faced b**** yang go around
b****-ing about others."
Quoted from 'her' blog



Good things fell apart so that better things will come together.
It may be stormy now but it will not rain forever.
Quoted from yasz blog


i believe tt though situation is out of hand ryte now, i believe it wnt b lyk this foreva. its understood to me tt shes going thru some personal pressure bt isnt she bein unreasonable by putting the pressure to me? aint she bein selfish? im having some personal problems too bt i still show care n corcern to her. bt up till now, i jz dnt gt it wd she expects from me. its nt abt bein terase bt i jolly well know tt shes simply talking abt me. yeah. even if she tried to deny it, who is she actually trying to kid? a 5 years old child? omg. this things is easy to get to the conclusion. its nt tt hard. jz put some logical thinking to it. n she even quoted wd i said everytyme to her when she gt herself into trouble. biler susah, carik. bler tk susah, buang. haish. idk wd has become of you. pape pn i dn wn to know uh. im disappointed wit ur changes. i noe u dn even care bt please try to tke note of ur attitude, im jz telling. its up to you if u wanna accept it not. haish.i hope you will change. i really do hope it to b tt wae. i love you friend.

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To love:
im sorry, bt my love seems to fade.
idk y. im sorry if the truth hurts. i noe uve tried ur best bein there.
bt it seems tt i cnt gt bck the love tt ive lost towerds u.
our relationship is goin lyk a roller coaster.
when im wit u i seems to b thinking of smethng else.
my mind and heart wasnt wit you. i lost my faith in love.
i felt cheated, used. n im sure she felt tt wae.
when u nid her, u throw me n nw uve gt me, u r throwing her.
idk y u r doin this. bt seriously, its getting on my nerves.
im losing control. relationships driving me crazy.
i wish i could turn bck time n move on, nvr to let u love me deeply.
i should haf move on earlier if i noe things gnna turn this wae.
bt pls, im begging you. dn leave her bcoz of me.
its nt worth losing a fren 4 a gerl.
its okay if we lose this relationship
bt i dn wn u to lose your frenship wit her.
i noe hw u had been treating her. pls its cruel.
eventhough i dn quite lyk it when u r too close wit her,
i cnt deny tt i hate to see her bein treated tt wae by u.
i noe tt feeling of getting cold shoulders frm sme1 u love.
she cn deny the fact tt she dont nid u.
bt who is she trying to kid? i go thru mre den her. i noe the feeling.
its really miserable, hiding and bottling up the painfulness in you.
by lying, shes onli betraying herself n tt really hurts.
im begging u. stp gving her cold shoulders. i cnt stand it.
u r lyk using her. dn do tt. ppl dn lyk bein used. EVEN YOU.
so please dn mke the sme mistake again.
i dn wn u to regret. think wisely b4 taking any steps.
u r a nice guy 4 me. bt i dn deserve u. mayb she do.
i noe you'll b reading this.
mayb nt nw bt mayb, sooner or later.
dn ask me y. coz ive explained it many times. n im sick of explaining.
please and please try to understand.
im done.

and to make matter worse,
you wasnt there when i needed you.

pffft. i noe its been a long tyme since i last blogged! okay im gnna do it nw on the request of my beloved ones. grrr! pnat oi! okay basically abt yesterdae had mly dance and i swore its effing tired, hot n PAINFUL! imagine you, at this age doin splits! omg tk saket ke bwh? n thanxx alot to it, my body is aching all over todae. sigh! klu dri kecik aku gymnastics tkp jgk. bt its okay coz i believe if theres a will, theres a wae. anw gt the post as a VICE-CHAIRMAN in mly dance. proud to b one though. =) and congrats to sarmira 4 getting the post as the CHAIRMAN. okay done wit dance stuffs.

im syahidah. i had a dream of bcuming a dancer. dancing had been my passion n it is part of my life. ive gt ppl arnd me who mde me laugh my heads out n made me cry all out too. this ppl mean alot to me eventhough they hurt me lots. i m me n i think nth could change tt. if u thnk tt u dn lyk bein here or nt satisfied wit me, i strongly encouraged you to leave. u dn deserve to b here. =)

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